Depressing

Well, didn't go too well today.
As I said before, I thought Vazy was better, so I went for a long walk in the forest. They were so happy to run freely after 2 weeks of short walks on leash. I was happy too, cause Vazy seemed to do good. I couldn't see any halting. But now, after a few hours resting and sleeping, she's as bad again. She screams when I bend her left front leg. I have to go to the vet again. I'm already on -20 000 kr and I don't manage to pay it back. This month I only have 500 kr left for the rest of the month. The last 4 months I've been paying more than 6000 in veterinary fees. I can never relax, cause there's always something happening. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. This is not normal. And still, I try to pay so much attention to them all the time, buying the best food, going for nice walks and all. But everything seems to go wrong anyway. Depressing..
I guess I have to get a job, but I don't know when I would have the time. That also makes less time for the dogs... argh......

ps. just noticed that within a 125 days I only have to pay the 10% "self risk" (what's it called?) to the insurance company, so it won't be so expensive hopefully....